With twenty-three red roses
He knew the answer found
Planned and aimed
He yearned to hear her sound
For two he'd bind it tight
With twenty-five white strands
One for all the waiting
Across her o so perfect hand
For thirty moments lost
At what good grace could make
With tiny hands and fingers
He was caught, for beauty's sake
In thirty-five bounds he'd move
Down Christmas covered stair
They'd laugh and shout
She's smile beneath her hair
For forty days they sat
Upon good beastly backs
Above all of her protests
His was a mule named Jack
For sixty minutes staring
Cross open lake at dawn
Marvelling at wonder
And the feathers
Solid, unmoving,
Insults hurled,
Hearts cast,
It stands, untouched.
Though inert,
Rock yearns to reach,
But cannot touch,
Left lying still.
Left, it stands,
Alone
For want of animate
And feeling.
At what point do you gamble?
Are your reckless or safe as can be?
How sure must you be?
A Little Perfect?
A Pair?
The odds are better than one in three.
Slightly Perfect?
Three of a kind?
Worse than one in forty-seven.
More Perfect?
Four of a Kind?
Four thousand one hundred sixty-five to one against.
Nearly perfect?
Royal Flush?
One in six hundred forty-nine thousand seven hundred forty.
Dead Perfect?
In Spades?
One in two million five hundred ninety-eight thousand nine hundred sixty.
The next hand will always look better.
If you never raise, you'll be out bluffed.
Throw 'em in and play.
Even ships that are long overdue pull into port eventually.
When time and meaning have faded away to endlessness,
The ragged sailors come on through.
Poseidon's crushing waves could only hold them for so many eons.
Their long lost eyes search for homes that aren't there.
Time is lost to them.
Their ships hit sandy bottoms that once were long below.
Where are the trumpets home?
Where is Athena's open arms?
They're still the boys who left their homes.
The world is so much bigger now,
And tiny like a ball.
Slowly the world catches back to them:
Nothing remains from old and everything
Is always still the same.
Who will greet the
You're so brave and strong as you
looked to me; expecting to see strength and iron.
I lied so well to give you that.
You never had to see my tears run
through your mother's hair to her blouse.
I placed the tickets in your tiny hand, so cold.
I never cared for baseball,
but how could I say no
when that's all you said you wanted?
You never did ask for much.
The soaked dirt encases my suit
but I cannot find it in me to move
The world freezes spins for my mind
How could I protect you
from what I could not see?
My selfish heart begs you here
I'd trade the world for you
to ask why, instead of me;
for your tears instead of mine;
In just a moment twisted time
deep set wound so scarcely stitchéd mine
wrenched open darkley runs as thine
heart fails to heed and starts to pine
for the maiden wooed the hearts combined
From behind massive, impenetrable, aluminum and glass, Verdun fortifications which were the blue-mirrored sunglasses with silver-colored frames hiding his deep emerald green eyes which had both made the skin of those he despised crawl and had proved to be the greatest betrayer of everything he really felt, which is what deep down he knew was really what simply made him human and not the weakness that caused him all his pain, his voice, barely audible as though he was scared of the truth that was about to whisper its way between his lips and out into the cool summer's breeze to her eagerly waiting ears, managed to work out the simple statement
I went sailing yesterday,
upon the jello sea.
Its waves were amber,
green and none of them the same.
The sea, so sweet and clear
was ev'ry child's dream
of endless treats and
careless days so young.
The storm crept in,
quiet and without call.
My eyes afixed on sunset's din,
were never the storm to see.
Our rigging tore out;
the wind too strong,
the boat too weak,
and our hearts disguised within.
Our ship, she moaned.
She creaked. She groaned.
Our guns, so useless here.
And I stood, frozen with fear.
The waves tossed up
and all around I, alone,
saw men drown in that
sweet, delicious, jello sea.
My legs gave out
as
If for no other reason than because she had extended her hand and taken his arm, while he was reattaching the last few pieces of his broken heart, after he had bore to her the truth of his fear of discovering that again someone might shatter his heart and leave him to put the pieces together again, following his tale of love's joy with another and how the other had had eyes of diamonds, hair of silk and a body to kill, how the other had thrust him into waters he never knew possible, pulled him out again, just to show him the world, how deep and passionate it all had been, all before the other had left him, he allowed himself to be taken with
My hole is deep dark and dank.
My hole is where I bury fears;
writhing slithering fears,
whose talons have held my life too long.
My hole is mine and mine alone.
My hole is all my pride.
I have often fallen short
of many wandering things.
"What's it for?"
They ask me hoping just to know.
My hole is blood bile and beer.
My hole is really all my own.
I never answer and am left
the lunatic.
My hole endless and empty.
My hole is where I forget my love.
A thousand fights I've lost,
To men I've never fought.
They lash at me with tongues.
Tongues I do not understand.
They toss my soul back and forth,
as though a cheap toupe,
to cover the hole in me.
They rationalize to each other,
"Its just a little time" they think and say.
But a thousand single times is still a thousand,
The same as a single time of one thousand.
And yet, here I sit, watching, waiting, hoping.
Valley of the Shadow of Calc. by Dagonus, literature
Literature
Valley of the Shadow of Calc.
The integral is my shepherd, I shall not estimate;
It maketh me to unveil the area.
It leadeth me to divide zero errors;
It showeth displacement.
It leadeth me in the path of calculus,
For Newton's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the
Shadow of math, I will fear no evil,
For thou art with me;
Thy maximum and thy minimum,
They comfort me.
You prepare a graph before me
In the presence of my eighty-three.
You demand zeros with haste;
My mind overloads.
Surely quizzes and tests
Will follow me all the days of my life,
And I will dwell in the area
Under the curve forever.
I can hear the rain,
as it patters 'gainst my window.
I've loved the rain
and the rain has always loved me.
Today is diff'rent though,
the rain a cold reminder,
of things that wouldn't be.
And yet for a moment,
I stop and recollect
a history of pleasant memories,
enough for the lives of two.
Reflecting on My Recent Past by Dagonus, literature
Literature
Reflecting on My Recent Past
From the fires I pulled her out,
Not anticipating anything.
She sought more than rescue
And so I carried her out of the ashes.
Built a tower to the sky
And travelled where I else would never go.
Bought marvels and worlds I else never would.
Surrendered to her many things
Things that carried me when I was alone.
All I asked for in return
To always be held by someone.
The one thing she wouldn't give.
High upon the mountain side
Blindfolded and spinning, you take a step to
Find solid ground and not the empty air for a ride
Faith that chance wouldn't drop you
Or is it chance that faith didn't drop you?
Fickle, swaying, leering,
Judging missteps harshly sans court.
It comes in pillars which rise and fall,
Taking many shapes; a few of them short
But not all of them tall.
At times, a flower
With upstretched petals and sharpened thorns
Means so much more than a tower
In its carefree beauty of the morn,
Yet so much harder to hold on to.
If you hold too tight
The pillar of faith will crush
Between fingers that only meant to sav
A thousand, miniature violins playing out of sync
as I sit and watch you sleep.
A view that I could watch all night
and one I have missed since Spring.
I'm sorry I show not my pleasure more,
burdening you with my pains when you're awake.
But while you sleep, I am smiles.
Your face, so calm and peaceful,
without the pain I know I cause
with foolish fears.
This moment could last a thousand years
and I would always smile.
I am sorry my love causes pain.
It bleeds my heart to hurt you so.
Still I watch you in your sleep.
The same I do when your awake,
but with a bit more smile.
For tonight is mine to watch
and mine alone.
Yo
The call came down the Farmer's lane
And to the house there in,
A young Lad sat
Sharpening a sword for war,
For King and Country.
The troop did rise,
Of mellow farmer lads,
Young and brave,
The troop did march upon an order,
For King and Country
the lad did laugh a boyish grin,
A grimace and a sneer,
To war, thought he,
His sword did rise above his head,
For King and Country
A charge was called,
A battle fought,
Soldiers fell,
And there the lad did lay,
For King and Country
In yonder meadow,
O'er there good sir,
Rise a hill,
A hill of stone,
Dark
Dismal stone,
Remnants of,
Histories,
Past,
A horse upon that hill.
A mountain upon that horse.
Yet so close,
In yonder meadow,
Came we to death good sir
But all of it is locked in stone,
Flash of stone,
Cloth of stone,
Steel fo stone.
Horse and rider
Undivided.
"Love is an ocean."
You just might get lost in it.
I've drowned and drowned,
but cannot wait.
"Patience is the greatest of all virtues."
You could never afford.
I am hollow, empty,
lacking in the spirit.
"We are most alive when we're in love."
Don't forget you aren't dead.
I'm sure I've missed my chances.
I've never seen so much of my shoulder.
"Nothing is as far away as one minute ago."
The next minute is soon to be far away.
It's so hard to fight.
I've only strength to float.
"Never confuse movement with action."
Letting the ocean take you is inaction.
I can see love coming now.
I'm walking out her door.
"Patience is bit
Current Residence: London, UK Favourite genre of music: rock, rock n roll, classic rock, Stuff Operating System: Depends On the System I'm Using MP3 player of choice: WinAmp Shell of choice: conch Wallpaper of choice: Pictures of My Driveway back home Skin of choice: Human Favourite cartoon character: Calvin Personal Quote: Insanity doesn't run in my family, it gallops.
Favourite Visual Artist
Rodin, Monet, I just can't pick "one"
Favourite Movies
Monty Python and the Quest for the Holy Grail
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Beatles...Smashing Pumpkins...Our Lady Peace
Favourite Writers
Poe, Isaac Asimov
Favourite Games
*wink* *wink* *Nudge* *nudge*
Favourite Gaming Platform
PC
Tools of the Trade
life, pencil, gouge, chisel, paintbrush, pastels
Other Interests
Table Top Gaming/LARPing/writing/sketching/paint/carving
Eric Clapton wrote great songs on the junk. He got clean and didn't write much to talk about until his son died.
No pain, no blues.
I'd rather no muse.
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Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I'll find my way, through night and day
Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven
Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knee
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please
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So i've been here now a week and it costs a fortune to live on this side of the pond. The prices here are RIDICULOUS. Easily double what they are back home.
Anyhow its fairly fun. Class doesn't start til wednesday so I've spend plenty of drinking time doing just that. Its funny when you find out old high school friends are in a foreign city at the same time and you go out drinking with them and end up BSing about ex girlfriends, flings, class and everything in between. Drudges up old shit. Good and bad. Mostly good. Good times. Good times.
I'll be back in the states around Christmas.
I'm moving to London for a year for the History of Warfare program at King's College.
If you're here and want to see me for drinks/sex ina dirty motel bathroom/old movies/bullshit/driving around/etc/etc/etc before I leave for there give me a call, txt, im or email. :P Yes! That means you too!